the happier you are

the harder the fall.

i cannot believe this is happening. i just can't believe it. but it is. i have been so, so happy. but it was an intricate web of lies. he put in so much time, so much effort, just to lie to me, to make me so happy. fake identity, fake job, fake emails, fake e-tickets, fake colleagues, fake perfection.

no money ever changed hands. what did he get out of this?

i don't know how to pick myself up after this one.

the page

is about to turn.

why

are so many men incapable of timely replies to emails or texts? is it because of the difference in priority? that women always place family and loved ones above all else, while men focus more on work?

十七年

还是走不出来。

i diddit

i did something i've been wanting to do for a few years. i told someone something. and it feels really good to finally get it off my chest. come what may.

games

are for children.

correction

i hate men who don't know what they really want.

and sometimes

i really hate men.

sometimes

i don't know why i bother.

murphy's law

when you stop looking, it comes looking for you.

interesting times

are up ahead. :)

btw, i have no idea why but there is a FLOOD of new readers here. hi! i'm sorry, this is a really quiet and boring place. i literally post hiccups from my brain. they don't usually make sense to owners of other brains. thank you for reading! :)

不想了

我累了！

不知道为什么

总是想起你。

so

i am going to vancouver in july. for three weeks.

i hear it is very much like melbourne. i hope it's true. because it could possibly be my next place of residence.

ps. i am absolutely amazed that there are still people reading this blog. :)

wait & see

let's just see how it goes, shall we?

2010 might be very interesting...

happy new year! to the handful of people still reading this space. :)

christmas eve

this is, i believe, the nicest christmas i've ever had in my life so far. :)

despite fighting a sore throat, trying not to succumb to fever, and worrying about a certain someone who suddenly went on radio silence for two days, i am most blessed this christmas than any other before. i have a sister, ten thousand miles away, and i know she loves me.

:)

scarred

so i have a scar the size of a caesarean section.

i also have a mental scar slightly larger than the above.

two scars, months apart, from different sources, for different reasons.

one physical, one mental.

one from a surgeon, one from a loved one.

thankfully, the cause of the latter did not result in another physical scar of the year.

are there any more, 2009?

on the table again

the operation table, that is.

this time is a tad scarier than the last.

15 may 2009.

wow

i never knew you were such a superficial person. really, all that matters is just the facade, isn't it? i'm a little disappointed in you, i must say. even though i'm not part of the picture, nor do i want to be anymore. you asked for advice, and i gave it. i gave it objectively.

and i meant it when i wished you all the best.

meh

i don't need a man who behaves like my boyfriend only when no one else is around.